Mama's Starting Over

I have been at my job for 2 months now.  In the beginning there was a TON of self doubt that I could actually handle it and do a great job.  I have felt completely in over my head many times, actually almost every day I feel a little in over my head. I spent the last month convincing my client to spend upwards of $30,000 to get into a conference that would put them in front of 700 bloggers.  I was worried about how it would turn out.  That bit of self doubt started to creep back in.  To say I was nervous was an understatement. We arrived in Nashville on Wed. and got our booth totally set up.  I was so proud of what I had accomplished but I had no clue how my boss or clients were truly feeling.  Riding in the elevator that night, my boss said....."I hope you are proud of yourself.  6 weeks ago you were unemployed and now you are kicking ass and taking names.  You have grown an amazing program out of nothing.  I could not be more proud...

My friend Ana Picazo named me one of her Five Fab Bloggers .  I'm not gonna lie, I got a little choked up which seems a little tough to do this days.  I have spent the last year growing and re-learning who I am.  I have rediscovered this strong, confident woman that I used to be but who I lost somewhere along the way. I have leaned on friends and family so much this year and often, many of them have told me that I inspire them.  Some have said I inspired them for taking the risk of leaving the safety of what I have know for 16 years.  Some have said I inspired them for learning to live in the here and now and not what could be.  I always just roll my eyes because I have felt during much of the last year that I wouldn't survive this. About a month ago I realized, I HAVE survived this!  I am a working mom now with a full time job and custody of my child 80% of the time.  I get her to school on time.  I make her lunches every day.  I ma...

I am sorta over blogging, which really sucks since it my job and all.  I think that is the key.  Now that I have to write so much for my job I am over it my personal life.  Also, now that I am embarking on this new life I am pretty protective over what I talk about.  Things have become sacred.  I don't want the drama nor do I need it. My life is amazing right now!  I have a job that I LOVE even though I am totally overwhelmed.  I am becoming better at being alone and just enjoying "me time" when LG is gone.  I am enjoying going out and dancing the night away.  I love hanging out with new friends and building relationships that are going to sustain me. Basically, I am sorry I don't have time to write.  I am just too busy enjoying life which is new for me.  First time in way tooooooo long!

January 12th marks the one year anniversary of the 7.0 quake that devastated Haiti, killing an estimated 230,000 people, injuring another 300,000 and rendering 1,000,000 individuals homeless. Since this horrific ordeal, Haiti Artisans are turning raw materials such as recycled oil drums, wrought iron and stone into wonderful art that embodies their rich culture and history. With these traditional, hand crafted treasures, they are provided a life-saving income to their shattered community they call their home. Willa Shalit, daughter of Gene Shalit, initiated a joint project between her company, Fairwinds Trading, and Macy’s.  The result is a collection of products created by the artisans of Haiti.  These products are being sold at Macy’s around the country. I shopped around, and I was AMAZED! I am in love with the Birds in a Breadfruit Tree Jewelry hanger . You must check out The Heart of Haiti and the beautiful, hand crafted products that they have to off...

I've saw Amanda do this, so I decided to copy her. 1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before? I'm gonna write about this soon. 2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't make them because I never keep them. 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Several of my friends had baby's this year but the one I was closest too was Robyn and my sweetie Cooper. 4. Did anyone close to you die?  No 5. What countries did you visit? No countries but I did visit Arizona, Colorado, Texas, Michigan and Washington. 6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010? Confidence 7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?  September 16th.  The day we filed for divorce. 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?  Landing a job doing exactly what I wanted to be doing! 9. What was your biggest failure?  The divorce. 10. Did you suffer illness or injur...