I have been at my job for 2 months now. In the beginning there was a TON of self doubt that I could actually handle it and do a great job. I have felt completely in over my head many times, actually almost every day I feel a little in over my head.
I spent the last month convincing my client to spend upwards of $30,000 to get into a conference that would put them in front of 700 bloggers. I was worried about how it would turn out. That bit of self doubt started to creep back in. To say I was nervous was an understatement.
We arrived in Nashville on Wed. and got our booth totally set up. I was so proud of what I had accomplished but I had no clue how my boss or clients were truly feeling. Riding in the elevator that night, my boss said....."I hope you are proud of yourself. 6 weeks ago you were unemployed and now you are kicking ass and taking names. You have grown an amazing program out of nothing. I could not be more proud of you." That was all I needed. I cried once I got back to my room. This time though they were truly tears of joy.
I have been trying so hard to find that self confident woman that I had lost over the years. She has slowly been creeping out here and there over the past few months but I feel like in the past few weeks she has BUSTED through. I am thrilled to be meeting her again.