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It Isn't That Different, But Then Again It Is

This being alone thing is weird.  In some ways, I don't feel different than I did in my marriage.  My husband traveled a lot and I was alone much of the time during the day.  At least being married, I had someone to talk to in the evenings.  We may have not said much but being able to just talk is one thing I miss.  Yes, I can pick up the phone, but it is different. I think what is missing is family.  I have TONS of friends.  They talk when I need to talk, they let me cry when I need to (which is less frequent these days....WOOT!), they let me bitch, etc.  I don't really turn into the red nose dripping, sobbing little girl that I need to be some days.  I really need my mom or dad to just be here so I can curl up in their laps and sob.  I need them to tell me that I am going to be ok and that while this is going to take some time in the end I will be a better woman.  Of course, they do tell me that but I just wish they were HERE te...