Making The Outside Match The Inside

I started working out again.  I had to do something to get out of the house.  I signed up at The Dailey Method and I am LOVING IT!!!!  I have lost 7 lbs and my body has already changed a lot in 2 weeks. 

Some may wonder if I really had the money to do it?  Not really but I made it work because sometimes you have to do something for yourself.  I am working my ass off to get my moneys worth because after this first month if I don't have a job I am going to be stuck.  Truth be told I can work some hours at the gym to get free classes but if I have a job that isn't going to work.  I will worry about that then.

It has been amazing for me.  The beginning of the week was really rough and I was really starting to think that I was a horrible person.  I did some deep thinking and I am done with the verbal abuse.  The old saying "Sticks and stones with break my bones but words will never hurt me?"  BUNCH OF BULLSHIT!!!!!  Words hurt.  The cut deep and they leave worse wounds.  I realized that people haven't lived my life.  They know one side of my life but they didn't live in my house, they didn't experience the things I did.  Until you have walked in my shoes you don't know the whole story....the end!

Today I met with my boss from Parenting on the Peninsula and her assistant.  We talked a bit about how I was doing but I am content to just say I am doing well and not talk about all the crap!  When I got home I got an email from L-M saying, "It was lovely spending some time with you.  You definitely are a beautiful person....inside and out.....and deserve to be loved just the way you want!!!!  Thank you for sharing."  She also told me I looked radiant while at lunch.

It is comments like those that make me hold my head up higher and feel confident in my choice!!!!

Comments

  1. YFApril 24, 2010 at 9:51 AM

    Awesome! I think it is so important to do something for yourself that is good for you - nothing beats exercise for your mind and body. Good choice!

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  2. LisaMay 11, 2010 at 4:39 PM

    Wow, I was just telling myself the same thing this morning, "stick's and stones....". What a bunch of bs. Yesterday my therapist told me that emotional/verbal abuse wounds the heart (and, if I may add: it wounds your spirit).

    So glad I stumbled across your blog. I'm JUST coming
    to the realization my husband has been doing
    this.

    Girl, you get that dieting program for yourself! Today I consoled myself with a mixer lol.

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