Not Getting Any Younger

Earlier in the week I found out that a fellow Yahoo! Motherboard member lost her husband suddenly on Sunday.  She asked that people make his favorite pie  today and share it with their loved ones. I made a pie and took it to work to share.  It was a big hit and I was really glad that I had participated.

The news of her loss hit me pretty hard which is odd since I didn't know Mike.  I used to think that divorce was a lot like losing someone to death but I realized that I am totally wrong.  Jennifer will never get to have total closure with her husband, that is something I can't even fathom.  Through all of this I started really thinking about myself and what I am doing to take care of me.

My mental health is always a work in progress.  My depression is in check and I feel great but I continue to see a therapist here and there to help me work through stuff.  Sometimes I just need that sounding board even though I have some pretty amazing women ready to give me their opinion at the drop of a hat ;-)

Physical health is my struggle.  I don't eat right all the time....I drink too much caffeine.....I drink to much wine (is that really possible?)......and I rarely workout anymore.  All of that combined isn't good.  I have put on a little weight but not too much, all things considering.  That aside, I don't feel great.  I have trouble sleeping and my tummy is doughy.  My ass...well it is still there and is never going anywhere.  I have learned to love it but my stomach is making me nuts.

Dating someone that is physically fit and into working out has often made me feel bad about not being able to fit it all in.  I am envious of him working out because I like to workout and I love the way I feel after getting my ass kicked. I make some great excuses but in the end it just hasn't been important to me. 

Seeing Mikey pass away at only 50, made me realize that life is short and we really have to take care of ourselves.  It's time to make an effort not only for me but for LG too.  I have to make the commitment no matter how hard.

Since money is tight, I can't join a gym.  Today I busted out my 30 Day Shred video.  I know it works.  It has helped me lose 20 lbs before and it will do it again.  It is only 30 minutes long which is just enough for LG to tolerate.  She even does some with me.  I have to figure when the best time to do it is going to be but I am making the commitment now.  For me.

And since I worked out today I can eat some leftover Peanut Butter Pie right?!?

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  1. kimberly/tippytoesAugust 12, 2011 at 7:04 PM

    I got pretty! Woo hoo! P.S. I thought you were looking pretty good at BlogHer!

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