Dear LG
Dear LG,
I am not sure why but I feel compelled to write you a letter today. In 3 days, you will start the first grade. First grade! I can't believe it. In the past year you have grown into the best partner in crime a mommy could ask for.
Last year on your first day of school I cried. My tears were a mix of excitement for your first day of "real school" and sadness as daddy and I were walking you in. Daddy and I were in the midst of our divorce and it was nothing like I imagined your first day looking. I had always envisioned us all walking in together hand in hand. Instead I walked a little bit behind the two of you with him holding your hand and me taking it all in. I loved watching you look up at him listening to him tell you how much fun you were going to have. I watched you cry when it was time for me to leave even though you had been going to preschool without me for 3 years.
Over the year I watched you blossom into this beautiful little girl who loves school and is the brightest ray of sunshine in my life.
Fast forward a year and everything is different. You are excited to go to school but have informed me that you don't want to wear your jumper anymore....only the skort like the big girls. Little do you know, you will be wearing that jumper a lot because it cost me $50! I am not sure if you are more excited because you are no longer a kinder or because this year you get to have a backpack. You are reading like crazy and you are eating up math too. Your favorite app on my iPhone right now is a math game and I couldn't be happier since I HATE math.
A lot has changed for you in the last year. Daddy and I are no longer married. I work a full time job and am no longer the one who cares for you every day after school. You spend every other weekend at Daddy's which has been challenging for both of us. Through all of this you are the happiest, sweetest little girl although you have a HUGE amount of sass. So much of your disposition comes from me but I do see hints of Daddy. I am thankful that you are a strong mix of the two of us.
You recently asked me when we would be moving back to Daddy's which was a very hard question for me to answer. You see, being a mommy, you never want to let your child down and I felt that by telling you that we wouldn't be moving back you would be let down. You seemed to take it very well and told me that you liked having two rooms so it was ok! Whew! Crisis averted for now.
I am excited to see what the next year holds for you. I am thrilled that your teacher is the same woman who taught Daddy and all the uncles. I am excited to see you keep growing and watching you change. I am hopeful that our strong bond will continue to grow.
You are the most amazing gift that I have ever gotten. I am so proud to be your mommy and even more proud to tell people you are my daughter!
Love you always,
Mommy
I am not sure why but I feel compelled to write you a letter today. In 3 days, you will start the first grade. First grade! I can't believe it. In the past year you have grown into the best partner in crime a mommy could ask for.
Last year on your first day of school I cried. My tears were a mix of excitement for your first day of "real school" and sadness as daddy and I were walking you in. Daddy and I were in the midst of our divorce and it was nothing like I imagined your first day looking. I had always envisioned us all walking in together hand in hand. Instead I walked a little bit behind the two of you with him holding your hand and me taking it all in. I loved watching you look up at him listening to him tell you how much fun you were going to have. I watched you cry when it was time for me to leave even though you had been going to preschool without me for 3 years.
Over the year I watched you blossom into this beautiful little girl who loves school and is the brightest ray of sunshine in my life.
Fast forward a year and everything is different. You are excited to go to school but have informed me that you don't want to wear your jumper anymore....only the skort like the big girls. Little do you know, you will be wearing that jumper a lot because it cost me $50! I am not sure if you are more excited because you are no longer a kinder or because this year you get to have a backpack. You are reading like crazy and you are eating up math too. Your favorite app on my iPhone right now is a math game and I couldn't be happier since I HATE math.
A lot has changed for you in the last year. Daddy and I are no longer married. I work a full time job and am no longer the one who cares for you every day after school. You spend every other weekend at Daddy's which has been challenging for both of us. Through all of this you are the happiest, sweetest little girl although you have a HUGE amount of sass. So much of your disposition comes from me but I do see hints of Daddy. I am thankful that you are a strong mix of the two of us.
You recently asked me when we would be moving back to Daddy's which was a very hard question for me to answer. You see, being a mommy, you never want to let your child down and I felt that by telling you that we wouldn't be moving back you would be let down. You seemed to take it very well and told me that you liked having two rooms so it was ok! Whew! Crisis averted for now.
I am excited to see what the next year holds for you. I am thrilled that your teacher is the same woman who taught Daddy and all the uncles. I am excited to see you keep growing and watching you change. I am hopeful that our strong bond will continue to grow.
You are the most amazing gift that I have ever gotten. I am so proud to be your mommy and even more proud to tell people you are my daughter!
Love you always,
Mommy
Lia,
ReplyDeleteI wanted to share how much letters like these helped me understand my mother, my parents divorce, and why things were the way there were when I was growing up.
The letters weren't easy to read but they helped me see my mother as the strong and loving person she is underneath her sometimes rough exterior.
Since you and I have virtually reconnected several years ago I have followed your writing, I dont read every day but I can see how far you have grown. You are an amazing mother to LG and the woman you are is the amazing person I once loved hanging out with as teens.
Just want you konow how much I admire you.
I loved your post. It was incredibly sweet! My daughter is almost 4 and I'm also in the middle of a divorce and so worried about how my daughter will get through it all. I guess life has a way of working things out for each one of us.
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