Sweet Dreams Are Made of This.....

I have been dreaming of the future a lot lately.  This is odd because I am not sleeping well at all so most of my dreaming is happening during the day.  I used to spend a TON of time thinking about the future...what kind of house we would own, how I would decorate it, when I would take Ashley to France for the first time.  My divorce brought those dreams to a screeching halt.  My dreams were replaced with nightmares of how to pay the bills, when I would land a job and how I would survive my broken heart.

Can you see why I am happy to be dreaming again?

Mostly my dreams are of having a house again with a garden in the back.  A place to plant flowers and call our own. I may never be able to own a house here, and that is OK, but I do miss having a house.  That being said, I am not quite ready for yet.  I LOVE having our little handyman in our complex who can come fix anything at the drop of a hat.  The pool is the best thing EVER.  I feel totally safe where we live and that isn't something that I take for granted.

I also have been dreaming of being on a lake.  Growing up we had a ski boat and we skied a lot in the summers.  We would travel to Clear Lake or Shasta and spend days on the boat and swimming in the lake.  I have great memories of that and I would love to make that a reality.  Of course, I guess I would have to rent a boat but it would still be fun.  Many of these dreams are of LG and I with other people.  I really hope some day they will come to fruition.

As for now, our summer is being spent mostly at the pool.  If she could, LG would be a fish or a mermaid.  All that girl wants to do is swim.  In fact, she spent about 4 hours in the pool on the 4th of July and left under serious protest when it was time to go home.  She reminds me so much of me at this age.  I spent every summer in the pool at my dad's country club.

After spending most of the summer hanging with Vove while we are at work, my mom is coming out for the week next week and LG couldn't be more excited.  She is, of course, upset that my mom's dog isn't coming with her though.  They will have a great time together.  Hopefully my mom and I won't be at each others throats while she is here.  Thank God for work!

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  1. UnknownJuly 6, 2011 at 4:19 PM

    Dreams are good. Glad to see you moving forward and finding the bright spot in all of this. Life usually does have a silver lining if we merely look hard enough.

    Good luck with the visit. I understand completely.

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