The J-O-B

I have been at my job for 2 months now.  In the beginning there was a TON of self doubt that I could actually handle it and do a great job.  I have felt completely in over my head many times, actually almost every day I feel a little in over my head.

I spent the last month convincing my client to spend upwards of $30,000 to get into a conference that would put them in front of 700 bloggers.  I was worried about how it would turn out.  That bit of self doubt started to creep back in.  To say I was nervous was an understatement.

We arrived in Nashville on Wed. and got our booth totally set up.  I was so proud of what I had accomplished but I had no clue how my boss or clients were truly feeling.  Riding in the elevator that night, my boss said....."I hope you are proud of yourself.  6 weeks ago you were unemployed and now you are kicking ass and taking names.  You have grown an amazing program out of nothing.  I could not be more proud of you."  That was all I needed.  I cried once I got back to my room.  This time though they were truly tears of joy.

I have been trying so hard to find that self confident woman that I had lost over the years.  She has slowly been creeping out here and there over the past few months but I feel like in the past few weeks she has BUSTED through.  I am thrilled to be meeting her again.

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