Trying

Trying to find a job is more difficult than I expected.  Not having been in the workforce for 5 years is a pretty big ding for employers.  It is sad because even though I have great skills the fact that I haven't been actually working (other than my freelance stuff, etc.) is making it tough.  Sigh.....

I just keep plugging away at it.  There are some teaching jobs available so I am applying for those but so will hundreds of other teachers that are being laid off.  At this point, I need to broaden the scope of what I am looking for.  I am willing though because not only do I need the money, I need the people.

I am lonely.  Friends are choosing sides or are just silently slipping away so that no sides have to be chosen.  The sad part is that my family isn't here.  They aren't here to hug me and tell me that I am going to be ok.  I know that eventually I will be ok but right now it doesn't feel like it.  Just when I am at my lowest there isn't anyone to love on me.

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  1. AnonymousApril 2, 2010 at 7:29 PM

    I am sorry people are choosing sides. Well you know I wouldn't! That is the beauty of having friends that didn't really know your hubby. I wish i lived closer, I would give you the love you need and I love mom's nights out and can have them every saturday if I wanted too. Hope you can make some new friends that didn't know your hubby! That would be a good, fresh start! Hugs, Angela

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