Mama's Starting Over

Dear LG, I am not sure why but I feel compelled to write you a letter today.  In 3 days, you will start the first grade.  First grade!  I can't believe it.  In the past year you have grown into the best partner in crime a mommy could ask for. Last year on your first day of school I cried.  My tears were a mix of excitement for your first day of "real school" and sadness as daddy and I were walking you in.  Daddy and I were in the midst of our divorce and it was nothing like I imagined your first day looking.  I had always envisioned us all walking in together hand in hand.  Instead I walked a little bit behind the two of you with him holding your hand and me taking it all in.  I loved watching you look up at him listening to him tell you how much fun you were going to have.  I watched you cry when it was time for me to leave even though you had been going to preschool without me for 3 years. Over the year I watched you blossom into ...

Earlier in the week I found out that a fellow Yahoo! Motherboard member lost her husband suddenly on Sunday.  She asked that people make his favorite pie   today and share it with their loved ones. I made a pie and took it to work to share.  It was a big hit and I was really glad that I had participated. The news of her loss hit me pretty hard which is odd since I didn't know Mike.  I used to think that divorce was a lot like losing someone to death but I realized that I am totally wrong.  Jennifer will never get to have total closure with her husband, that is something I can't even fathom.  Through all of this I started really thinking about myself and what I am doing to take care of me. My mental health is always a work in progress.  My depression is in check and I feel great but I continue to see a therapist here and there to help me work through stuff.  Sometimes I just need that sounding board even though I have some pretty amazing wom...

This year BlogHer was wwwaaaayyyyyy more relaxing than ever before.  I am not sure if it was because I am in such a different place in my life or if I just didn't care.  I was really nervous about Thursday night because I had 5 places to be at one time.  While getting ready I decided to say "Screw it, I will get to what I get to and I refuse to kill myself doing it."  I made it to 2 things.  Evidentally, there were a few feelings hurt that I didn't make it to their events but I just apologized and said I did my best.  It was good enough for me! Enough about that.  Here are my loves and dislikes for this year.... LOVES Robyn and Kimberly I seriously couldn't ask for better girl friends.  On Thursday night we....nearly died in a pedicab, laughed so hard I was crying all my make-up off and almost pee'd my pants in a cab on the way home....that was just night 1!  The weekend was filled with snarky comments and some of the most hilarious s...